forget trust issues, I just have issues.

Dear you,

I have been fighting to be myself for as long as I can remember.

I am a unapologetic, ridiculous, overwhelming, unrestrained, disorganized, confusing, and unrepentant mess.

I have fought family, friends, teachers, employers, students, neighbors, and probably even God at some point.

I used to think it was a losing fight, but I kept on fighting because I haven't always loved myself, but I've always wanted to.

I try to love myself every day.

I end up loving myself maybe most days.

But though I've been fighting everyone to be myself, I've ended up with a problem.

I am not good at letting myself be loved by other people.

Sincerely,
xx
Blue